Looking back, I must have been living on adrenaline for a long, long time.

I was driven to be the best I could be that I nearly lost the essence of whom I was.


I barely recognise myself these days.  I am definitely not the same person as I was 10 years ago.

Life experiences have definitely changed me as some of the most stressful events of my life happened in the past decade.  I lost parents, a sibling, pets and several close friends.  One of the things I realise about myself is that I have been too serious all my life.  I have always been the one people can depend on.  I am gradually returning to the essence of whom I used to be in my early 20s.

These days I realise that I have to put myself, and my health, first.  This wasn’t an easy task when I first started to do so.

I no longer let stress affect me negatively.  Stress is not good on the body and can manifest itself in various ways.   On a physical level, stress lead to pneumonia and bronchiectasis for me.  On a mental level stress didn’t make me depressed but I certainly wasn’t my old happy self.  I wasn’t motivated to look after myself in terms of food intake, I stopped going to the gym, I stopped doing the things that use to give me such joy.   I was living, but I didn’t feel alive.

However, I do know now that IF I do not look after myself first, others will have to look after me.  That, in a way, is asking too much of my family and friends.  Enjoying good health once again, and no longer taking this for granted, I can now turn my focus on to things that ignite my passions.


I recently turned 55 and I am much happier these days.  These days I recognise when I fall back into an old pattern and I catch myself before I am too far down that all familiar path.  I once again have a zest for live and I feel alive.

I am physically better and stronger than 10 years ago thanks to all the changes I have made in my life.

I get a kick out of the “little things”.  To me, little things can be:

  • Spending quality time with my husband & best friend
  • Pottering around at home
  • Playing with our dogs
  • A visit by/to family and friends
  • Listening to my favourite songs & dancing
  • Going for a walk along the beach
  • Learning new things; I am currently studying Reiki
  • Reading – no devouring – books as my unquenchable thirst for knowledge, and growth, is back
  • Cuddling/Playing with a puppy
  • Enjoy eating sushi
  • Going for a drive and exploring the countryside
  • Volunteering and/or supporting local charities close to my heart